LIFE CAN BE HEAVENLY

When I first read, there is a design for living that works in rough going I was taken back. I know how to die. Raised in a dysfunctional family of alcoholism, abuse, and mental illness I found I inherited their genetic and behavioral predisposition, including a liver that did not digest alcohol or mind and mood altering medications like a normal person. With a new understanding of why my life seemed like a nightmare brought the realization that I had a death wish; each drink or prescription pill was another nail in my coffin. Surprisingly, I knew at a deep level, I wanted to live. 

I suffered and endured my adversity of physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual maltreatment until I could leave for college. Unsuspectingly, I found a fellow at my first college dance, who also was in my music classes. For the first time I found someone, I could talk with and seemed to be a mutual companion. We married and raised a family. Over the years, life became more of a problem and I found myself playing out my parents' marriage of domestic violence.

When my husband tried to kill me the last time, I had called out to my God, ""Please help me, I really do not want to die." Within days, I ended up in treatment hearing information about the disease of alcoholism. Growing up in the forties, alcoholism was not common knowledge like it is today. 

In rehab, I heard that I had a disease and I was not a bad person, but a sick person needing to get well. Through recovery, I found my husband and I had the same history of an abusive background, mental illness, and alcoholism. In treatment, I found my answers. I needed to persist into a sane and healthy life style. What did a toxic substance have to do with being beaten, strangled, or raped? How could I be insane, I had 7 years of college and taught school for many years with excellent reviews? Church never told to me to turn my life over to the care of a God, of my understanding.

I never had any understanding about why my life was the way it was. I was committed to get well. It made sense when I heard the universal law that "Like attracts like". I am alive today through applying the 12 step spiritual programs for healing my past. With newfound solutions and support, I could get a divorce and walk away from the insanity.

Then I needed a trusted person to share my fears, resentments, and difficulties. Expressing my harms and abuse was not easy for me. This was the first time anyone even listened to me, or I had any permission to speak up or have feelings about my past troubles. I did not have to block my emotions of the past. However, after finally telling my story, I started waking up into why my life was so complicated. 

Over time, I realized that I had the very faults I blamed in my husband and that I had attracted the relationship to me as if I were a magnet. He was my mirror to what I had to change in me. In stopping the old cycle, I chose to live and not carry on in my old ways that perpetuated the problems. I wanted to release my side of the street. What goes around comes around. I could send out love and compassion to him for his horrendous childhood, instead of trying to defend myself. Now, I could send love and pray for him, which stopped the conflict.

I found out that defending myself feels like an assault to someone else. Learning that safety is the complete relinquishment of attack, I found my new inner message was telling me that my Heavenly Father loved me unconditionally. This mended my abandonment issues.

Subsequently, I attended a weekend workshop for answers to help me find new answers about my predicament. I heard the facilitators read the information and I heard it from their understanding instead of my reading it through my fearful ego/brain. All of a sudden, the light came on and I understood my dilemma and the solution.

Others at the seminar decided to offer classes to share this solution with others. I was asked to participate once a month as a leader. From helping others for 27 years, I found the answers to my own quandaries. Discovering that my fears attract to me the very dread I held, was huge to me. I was full of fear and needed to release them. The answer was to replace each fear into faith. I cannot have fear and faith at the same time.

In helping others resolve their resentments, I found that anger/resentments are from the past because life or people did not go my way. The answer was to release the past, as it is history. Forgiveness "gives up" the past "for" a new day. Living in the "Now" releases my anger.

When letting go of the past guilt and shame, it is possible to replace that with being a child of God, created in His likeness of love. After identifying each fear, resentment, guilt, and shame and replacing them with love and grace, brought a new perception. "Perfect love casts out fear." 1 John 4 "God's grace is sufficient" 2 Corinthians  12:9 Now, I can refill the space from what I do not want for what I do want.

I found life is an adventure to move forward and out of past harms of abuse or future worries, trauma, and neediness. I can now live in the moment which is a gift and why it is called The Present. Love never fails. Today, I am happy, joyous, and free of my ego. I have a life today beyond my imagination feeling good. I finally had a design for living. Becoming a whole person in joy, gratitude and the presence of love brings heaven to earth.

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The Secret to Life

The secret in life is becoming a magnet for higher vibrations of love. When I released the negative emotional basis from my past, I found an inner void. The silent voice inside, told me that now I could fill that emptiness with self-esteem. Each time I let go of another fault, I was told to replace each one with love and grace.

I will never forget the first time I felt grace. I was meditating while camping in Death Valley National Park. It felt so good to have grace from head to toe. Today, I know I am a spiritual being releasing my human shortcomings. My inner being changes to a love-based person from a fear-based person. To improve my surroundings, I focus upon the best things currently until I flood my vibrational patterns with thoughts of gratitude and appreciation.  

Over thirty years ago, I started a gratitude list that I add to daily to keep my focus on thankfulness. I had to lift my self-imposed limitations - all limitations are self-imposed - and free myself to receive wonderful things. With a changed higher vibration, I allow the new-and-improved conditions and circumstances to come into my experience. 

Ask yourself, what do I want?” Take one of your wants and ask yourself the following questions: What feelings will I have if I want more, get that, or want what I do not have today? How will I change when I get this want? How will my life change when I get this want? What do I see my life looking like when I get this want?

In the moment, with my new state of being vibrating my own unique vibration, with no agendas or planning, I create my new life by attracting like energies in perfect synchronicity and timing. No one can deny or grant anything. I attract it by vibration. It is a universal law that like attracts like. The trick is that I have to remove the barriers so what I want can manifest. My book, "Paradigm Busters Reveal the Real You" at Amazon or at Barnes & Nobel have the steps chapter by chapter to accomplish this.

When I understand this principle, it becomes easy to differentiate between what raises my vibrations closer to my Creator and what keeps me separated. I found I could raise my energy by using tuning forks, receiving energy healing, acupuncture, and by means of massage. In addition, applying the universal laws, prayer, and meditation will raise my energy into a higher consciousness. 

Other means include taking homeopathic remedies as flower essences, Chinese herbs, and drinking pure water support a higher energy within. Watching spiritual movies, reading spiritual material, and listening to classical music raise my spirit. In addition, consuming non-toxic drinks, eating organic foods, and looking for the good in my life make a big change.

The following quote by Benjamin Franklin sums it up: “Through what seemed like insurmountable obstacles, persistently reaching for the better thought, for authenticity and trust brought me to a place of abundance, self-acceptance, and love. Of course, the journey continues with new seeds of awareness sprouting every day. Using our God-given energy to persist in love we can face the monsters and live to tell the tale. Even transform them into beautiful beings of light. It’s what we all signed up for.”

My life today is not without tests and challenges. However, I do not put myself in places to be hurt and my past is not being recreated in my life. Gratefully, my fear of financial insecurity has left. I can even speak up today when intimidated and in tough situations.

My biggest learning has been to meditate. Listening to my inner guidance and direction has brought me the truth for which I was searching. I know that my spiritual help is with me constantly for support and protection. I am empowered. I have learned to respond in love instead of react from fear. My third dimensional life of duality based in fear has moved into the reality of “oneness” where there is peace, harmony, and balance―a higher consciousness.

In the last thirty-four years, I have overcome many medical, emotional and relationship problems. I have learned how the dynamics of life work and how to change the cause and consequences in life to feel better. I have awakened into a higher consciousness within.

When I changed, my life changed. I found the light inside. That light within is the Creator and is in all things. It is my power, strength, and supply. The spiritual core of my enlightenment emerges as the darkness leaves. Life is about mastering my emotions, as I grow into mature. Sharing my answers and solutions feels good. I co-create my own reality.

I have discovered my tasks will never be all done. I am right on track, right on schedule. Everything is unfolding perfectly. There will be challenges to continue the choice to respond in love to all my experiences.

The best is yet to come. Now, I realize that I will never have everything I want. I feel better and I find more of the things that I want flow to me. No one is keeping score. This unfinished place is the best space that I can be. I am right on my path, right on schedule. Are you having fun yet? Good luck in reality.

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Rev. Marilyn L. Redmond, BA, CHT, IBRT is an ordained minister for spiritual counseling, past life regressionist, medium talking to those past over and archangels, offers Tarot/Psychic Readings, teacher, speaker, and author of 10 eBooks books and paperback books on Amazon. Here 170 videos are on You Tube. Marilyn's blog and web site Angelica's Gifts  has pioneering and innovative work in restoring traumatic lives, healing emotional causes of illness and releasing negative energy, restores health and reality. Contact her at marilyn@angelicasgifts.com