I AM A NEW PERSON

 

I AM A NEW PERSON

 

By Rev. Marilyn L. Redmond

 

In a meditation, I rise out of the universe and beyond. I found myself in the unlimited sunlight. From this view, I see the endless horizon. The feelings of abundance and prosperity fill the air and are within me. This occurrence lasts for the morning. I know it is all there is and available for me. I feel the presence of All That Is— immersed in love.

 

Archangel Michael tells me that the path is clearing for the unhealed core issues to surface and be felt. My past vasanas are coming up and leaving as gut pains. I am reminded that Pure Love casts out all fear. My life had been fear based for years. This is uncomfortable but I slow down enough for the process to happen. I am familiar that when the good comes in and the unresolved emotions leave. Having been a workaholic and over achiever, this is a challenge. I describe this process in my books at Amazon. I was told years ago when my mental illness erupted, to say, "Yippy, skippy it is leaving". 

 

In addition, I am informed that I will be the one in my family to heal six generations of family anger. Realizing that I had been living in my parents' woundedness become real. These stuffed feelings were the basis for many of my emotions and finally can leave. Now, with 40 years of recovery from a background of sexual abuse, domestic violence, mental illness, addictions, past lives, and medical related issues to get my attention, with more old fears as worries, and negativity finally surface to leave

 

I had no feelings for years. When I was younger, I stuffed my ordeals to survive. Identifying these past issues daily for many years at a conscious and soul basis and releasing them has brought authenticity. I had been stuck at the age of an emotional three year old from seeing my mother beaten by my father, thinking I was next. I identify the source of each these old emotions to heal and let them go. I describe the process in "Paradigm Busters".  I am told, growing up, is not for sissies. Growing up from my first time on earth until now has been my full journey, to let go and let God.

 

Now there is space for love and grace to fill me. I see life as neutral and I do not need to see events as good or bad. It would take a book to relate my spiritual journey from the Pleiades and my path of past lives to currently help others and raise the consciousness of the planet from my experience and wisdom. They just are there to influence my moving into reality.

Now, I understand as my friends leave over time, that our energies no longer match. Attracting healthy people brings a new life filled and surrounded in love. I understand when I am filled with love, that is the amour of God, and negative energies repel. Turning on the light within brings the truth and reveals itself.

 

I release more core issues as I rise out of the universe it feels like I have moved out of the blue print for my life challenges. Safety is the complete relinquishment of attack. No longer defending myself through past neglect, abandonment, wanting to die, or future worries, has given me a new set of eyes. I feel like a completely new person. I forgive, have compassion, and thank those people for providing the opportunities I needed to identify my core issues allowing me to return home.

 

My eyes look back at me from my mirror in my bedroom in a self-assured and complimentary way I never saw before. Seeing me as a normal person with confidence is new. Sensing myself as younger surprises me as I am calm and comfortable. With this new inner experience, I approve of myself before leaving to do errands.

 

I went to my appointment driving with a fresh, bigger, and more rational vision of clarity feeling empowered. I like my authority. I even joked with the person helping me, which was a first for me and walked away feeling normal. A kind man opened the door for me to leave as I use a cane.

 

Driving home, I cry listening to the very high tones of a violin concerto on the radio. The resonance is so beautiful that I merge with the tones. Another pointer verified my change as I enjoy the warm sun sitting on my patio. I viewed the leaves on the tall trees surrounding my home shimmer in the soft winds as the sunshines on them. Their iridescence is so glorious that I fill with ecstasy for the magnificence of nature and the universe. Michael tells me that I am one with the "Source of All There Is"  as I experience the positive energy in all things. Life is good.                       

 

                                                Marilyn L, Redmond 

Changing the Negative to the Positive

 

By Marilyn L, Redmond , BA, ABH, IBRT 

 

Were you raised in a family that was happy, laughed, or worked as a team? When the family history has trauma, fear, anger, shame, or other negativity, it is passed on to the children. I found I was a good sponge to the emotions and past trauma of my family, which was dysfunctional with anger, fear, and mental illness passed on to them. I was so used to the negative attitudes, judgments, and survival of my family, that I followed their modeling. It goes down through the generations. Therefore, I followed their lead. I did not know there was another way to handle life.

It has taken years to peel the onion to realize, I was living the life of my parents. History was repeating itself in my life. I thought if I married, I could create a happy family where we were close and helpful to each other with love. I tried very hard to be the perfect wife, mother, teacher, homemaker, and more.  It all lead to a disaster over time, as I married someone with the same influences as my family of origin. I went to church, took my children to church, and looked good at my job and in the neighborhood. It just got worse as inside the walls of our house. There was no peace and happiness.

Through the trauma I endured which mirrored my childhood, I prayed spontaneously, "God I do not want to die". My prayers were answered and I ended up in a treatment center for being addicted to the pills from my psychiatrist. I had gone for help, but the pills had addicted me. I learned about meditation in their program. My church had preached against meditation and this was a difficult to change..

I had never heard of faith or to trust the universe. I could not trust my parents, how could I trust something I could not see, a spirit of love that created the universe. When I found it is a Creative Intelligence, a Spirit of the Universe underlying the totality of things, I began to be possessed of a new sense of power and direction, provided I took other simple steps. I realized the Creator was in my heart, it was love. Love is always positive. It is there for each of us.

With the decision to move out of the negativity, I choose to change from being fear based in my life to being love based.  That my ego was running my life was new to me. I just did what I was told in the past from my family, husband, work, church, and medicine. It seemed to be making my life as if I were living in a nightmare. Ego can mean Edging God Out. I needed to move from my head/ego into my heart. I decided to merge God in to my life that meant coming from love. This decision is still playing out with my finding that I can create a happy and healthier life.   

I wanted to affirm the truth about me and not what I had been raised to believe. Over the years I identified all my fears, guilt, shame, jealously, and more to replace them with a positive confirmation. Over time, my thinking changed with daily validation of my worthiness and value. I found using my new affirmations and using Flower Essences allowed the old negative messages to flow out of my consciousness and leave space for the positive messages to replace them.  My life was gradually changing as I used different Flower Essences to release newly identified negativity and turn it around into being positive.

I now substitute the positive for the negative and my life is growing into the light of truth. What if the dark truth of the future gets filled with your light when it arrives? Expecting the most benevolent things for yourself and others to actually create a powerful energy that is then part of creating your own reality.

My life has transformed to seeing through the eyes of goodness in all things. I learn the lessons to move on from each upset. I can now respond in loving solutions instead of reacting from the past fears and trauma. Now when I get out of bed in the morning, I can expect good things and I feel a light to go before me with whatever I am faced. I have grown up and matured into adulthood. .

I was told to change everything and I have. I wrote the details for this process in "Paradigm Busters" at Amazon. The process for changing fear, resentments, and other parts of life are given in information, real stories, and charts to sort out changes in your thinking. I am no longer that powerless victim used by others. My insides now match my outsides, most of the time. Love never fails. I am able to have a life where I have my own power to be true to myself.  

"Paradigm Busters" is a new approach for a New Age. https://www.amazon.com/Marilyn-Redmond/e/B0069WIKDC  "This book contains a lifetime of wisdom and insight into the mind-body-spirit connection of healing and wholeness. If you are trying to reach new levels of health or trying to find your purpose in life, this book is a must read." ~ Dr. Kathleen Drake, Chiropractor 

“Marilyn Redmond has spent her life bringing light and love from the realm of angels and spirit to this world of ours. In this book she shares with us, some of her rich history as she helps us better understand the beauty of our own Divine selves.” ~ Gladys Taylor McGarey M.D. MD [H]

 “Happiness is an inside job, which can never be reached with drugs! Following this wise advice could save your life, and a great deal of suffering. HUGS, Norm.” ~ C. Norman Shealy, M.D., Ph.D. President, Holos Institutes of Health Professor Emeritus of Energy Medicine President Emeritus Holos University Graduate Seminary

 

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